Revenge is an euphoric thing. Trust me on this. Nothing compares to the release you get when you ruin someone’s life. When they’ve stolen important things. Things that didn’t belong to them. Things I revel in making them pay for.
What? Have I offended you? I’m not here to appeal to your delicate senses. I have no intention of placating your wishes or living within your personal belief system nor do I care if you hate me. And you will hate me. Because I’m a brutal, savage, cold-blooded murderer and I’m here for my revenge.
I’m Ethan Moonsong...And this is the story about how I went from the world’s most sacrificing man to the most feared and why I wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world.
Shannon’s 5 Star Review:
Is one sin greater than another sin? If you can stop one sin by committing another does that make that sin more forgivable? When the fury, the anger, and the rage filling your heart and soul and the blackness blocking out the light becomes so tangible that you can feel it, you can taste it, and you need it to survive, can you ever come back from that? For some people they turn to alcohol, drugs, or other dangerous activities to numb the darkness and the outrage but for Ethan Moonsong he turned to an old friend who unfortunately had her own demons to cast out.
Ethan had loved Cricket most of his life. He dreamed of marrying and growing old with her. That is until Spencer Blackwell showed up in their small town and fell in love with and took Cricket away from Ethan. He saw red. Every time he turns around he hears her name and sees the questing looks and the pitying glances. Ethan stepped over the line of sanity and into the darkness but he had an earthly guardian angel watching over him and led him back from the ledge he so often teetered on.
Finley Dyer had a difficult childhood. She had seen and experienced things that were far worse than death. Death would have been a welcomed escape from the different levels of hell she endured. She’s taking the strength she’s built from her experiences and is setting out to help hundreds of girls that are unfortunately going through the same kind of horrors she survived.
Finley and Ethan become friends again and the healing begins for both of them. Finley’s friendship, wit, and never ending faith in him helps Ethan escape his darkness and fury. Finley is the light to his dark, the saving grace to his sin. They develop a strong, electric bond that cannot be broken. Just touch of a hand or a soft whisper of her name brings him up from the abyss he frequently sank into. Finley believes helping the many girls facing what she went through will help her heal from her past but when Ethan finds out the danger she’s walking into, he knows he must travel to her to protect her.
When Ethan arrives in Vietnam and begins to help with the cause his fury reignites and takes on an entity of its own. It hides under the cloak of darkness and wears a hood of black but frees the young girls of their own darkness and brings them to the light and a new life. When Ethan realizes he’s no better than the monsters he’s ridding the world of what will he do? Will he continue to let the fury eat away at his soul or will he fight his way back to the light and goodness that Finley fought so hard for?
Sin is sin. But when a sin is used for doing good for the world, can it still be defined as sin? Will God still hold the sinner accountable? Does the sinner even know he’s sinning at the time or does he think only of all the good that’s coming from the sin?
This book is absolutely incredible. The heart wrenching subjects it brings to light will make you question humanity. I can only imagine the research and the time and labor Ms. Amelie put into this book, just the same as Vain and Greed, I’m sure. The book itself is tangible, the feelings are real, the tears I cried were real, the anger I felt was red hot, the hurt was deep. I cannot wait to read the remaining four books of the series, Lust, Idle, Binge, and Envy and to get lost in their pages and the journey of overcoming the greatest sins.
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I took a deep breath as my fingers found their purchase and pulled out my keys. The key I needed somehow hit home and the lid sprang open, the knives staring at me, daring me. I watched them, waited for them to tell me what to do, but nothing came. They laid still, gleaming in the moonlight waiting for me too, it seemed. I sat in the passenger side seat, one boot still on the gravel, and made the first move. Raising a trembling hand toward the temptation, my fingers felt the cool length of each blade.
The rage still burned in my veins and I felt myself sobering, hesitating. No, I kept hearing. Pick them up, a voice said, so I did. Their weight felt good in my hands, comfortable. I breathed three breaths before gripping their handles and twirling them quickly in my palms. Even drunk, I could slaughter anything that moved. I was made to hunt. And hunt you shall, the voice urged.
I nodded and stood, shutting the passenger side door, tucking the blades into the back of my jeans, and camouflaging them with my shirt. My boots echoed with each step back toward the bar, heavy and dark like the night that surrounded me, like the thoughts in my head.
The adrenaline seared through my body, heightening every nerve, intensifying every sense. My heart pounded like a bass drum in my chest, pressing painfully against my ribs. My skin burned with anticipation.
I reached for the door handle.
“Where do you think you’re going?” a voice whispered, startling me.
I stopped, one hand on the handle. “Finley, go home,” I ordered her.
She stood from her leaning position against the outside wall of the bar, out of the shadows, and walked toward me. Her eyes seared through me. She came to me, stood closely, the heat from her body enveloping me.
“No, I don’t think I will,” she told me, looking up into my eyes. “At least not alone.”
She stood tenaciously, fearlessly. I noted how much taller she was than Cricket and it was a little bit intimidating to me, like what she said was going to happen whether or not I liked it. I respected her and I didn’t know why. I stared at her hard, but she didn’t budge. No, instead, she strengthened her own resolve, her jaw tightening with the decision and glared back even harder. She said and did things with such righteous authority, I felt powerless to her. I’d never felt that way before about a woman. It wasn’t pushy or irrational, it was simply as it was going to be.
My eyes and face relaxed the moment I acquiesced. “Fine.”
Her body followed suit and she nodded once, grabbing my arm and leading me toward my truck. Her hand reached into my jeans pocket, sending an inexplicable electrical charge through me, which I promptly chose to ignore, and yanked out my keys.
“Get in,” she ordered and I obeyed.
She threw herself into the driver’s side and slammed the door shut, sticking the keys in the ignition and turning only once. The engine started, daring not to further goad her. The stereo kicked on, belting something indicative of the moment we were leaving behind us, full of bass and a sharpness so edgy it echoed through my chest and head.
She shoved the truck in reverse, throwing her arm over the back of the bench, and her stare found mine. It was a solid look, packed full with a storm of unspoken words. Without breaking her gaze, she shifted into drive. She held there for a moment, driving her disappointment in me deep down into my soul before finally looking ahead to the end of the parking lot. I know I’m toxic, Finley, I thought, but that didn’t stop my mouth from retching awful thoughts.
“You have no reason to be pissed at me,” I told her, practically begging her to speak.
She didn’t say a word as she pulled out onto the road with more punch than the Finley I knew normally would have, turning toward the interstate. I had no clue where she was taking us, but I wasn’t about to ask.
Just make her turn around, I thought. Tell her you won’t do anything.
I opened my mouth to speak but caught a glimpse of her hair whipping about her determined face from the open windows and forgot what I was going to say. I turned my gaze toward the windshield. The light from the headlights exposing just enough of the road to make me nervous at the speed we were traveling. One hand found the dash to steady myself.
“What’s wrong, Ethan?” she asked.
“Huh?” I asked, whipping my head her direction.
“Too fast for you?”
“Liar,” she said, calling me out.
I wiped my palms down the thighs of my jeans. “Slow down,” I said, swallowing.
“Oh, now you want to play it safe?” Her eyes narrowed. “You’re so selfish, you know that?” she asked. I was taken aback. She’d never talked to me like that.
She leisurely drove across lanes as if traveling more than a hundred miles per hour was completely normal.
“What?” I demanded, feeling alert. The adrenaline had sobered me quickly.
“You’re selfish. And stupid. Let’s not forget stupid.”
My blood boiled. “Whatever, Finley.”
“Whatever, Finley,” she mocked. “Don’t you know I’m suffering? That I’m the only person in the world who suffers? Can’t you see that I’m determined to be foolish, Finley?”
“What do you know of suffering?” I asked, incensed.
Wide eyes met mine and her jaw clenched as she pulled over, slamming us to a stop. Her hair flew forward from the force before settling onto her chest and shoulders.
“I know more about suffering than you could ever possibly imagine. You don’t know shit! So you got your heart broken. So what! There are worse things, you know. There are things out there that would curl your toes to know about, Ethan.”
About Fisher Amelie:
Fisher Amelie resides in the South with her kick ace husband slash soul mate. She earned her first ‘mama’ patch in 2009. She also lives with her Weim, Jonah, and her Beta, Whale. All these living creatures keep the belly of her life full, sometimes to the point of gluttony, but she doesn’t mind all that much because life isn’t worth living if it isn’t entertaining, right?
Fisher is the author of The Seven Deadly Series, The Sleepless Series, and The Leaving Series, and was a semi-finalist in Amazon’s Breakthrough Novel Award.